No closure is somehow closure

Tuesday, July 12, 2016


Before I take a break, I feel that now is the right time to speak out and release these feelings—to find closure (no future hopes or promises, just closure for myself). That’s why I’m writing this entry here on my blog. Sometimes, no closure is closure in itself. Since he never allowed me even a day or a moment of his time, all I want now is to begin healing before I finally close this chapter of my life.

"What you read above is exactly what you get"—that was the reason, and nothing more. I’d like to say it was his decision alone to keep this distance, but I think we both know it was for the best. After all those years, I never imagined we would go through something like this. But don’t get me wrong—I don’t regret what I’ve been through.

Hey, Stranger!

It’s been a long time. I’m glad you’re doing well, but as we both know, I have no idea how you really are. Haha. You probably don’t expect this, and I don’t expect you to read it either. But I hope you can hear what my heart is saying—I want you to know there’s no bitterness or sadness left inside me anymore.

Do I need to “move on”? Not yet. But don’t worry, I’m getting there. For now, I’ll take small steps toward finally letting you go—a tough truth to accept. And I know you’ll be happy for me. I’ve learned to do this for my own good this time.


I love you, and nothing will ever change that. I know you can’t hear this from me anymore. Not anymore. Because I’m not the same person I was a year ago, a month ago, or even a week ago. In short, I’m no longer the person who once loved you. But I hope you find the right one—someone who sacrifices for you and loves you more than I ever did.

Someone who will adjust herself and never stop fighting to make it work, because I know giving up is the easiest thing to do in the first couple of years (or so). Someone who will pick you up from the office and hang out with you and your old or new friends. Someone who will take care of you when you get drunk and never leave you alone somewhere. Someone brave enough to take you home and say, “Let me see you home first to make sure you get home safely,” just like I did for you all those times. Someone who’s there for you 24/7. Someone who will never put you in a position where you have to chase her or sacrifice her, but rather, someone who will sacrifice who you are. Someone who won’t make you bury yourself in guilt.

Expect the same roller coaster and heartbreak again with the girl.

I wish for you to find a friend as great as I am, but an even better partner. I hope you find someone who makes you feel the love and happiness you truly deserve—because you deserve nothing less. And I hope I find the one worth committing to. Sooner or later, we will both be happy with whomever we choose to love again.

We had those five years. I swear, I’ll never forget what we shared because those were the best years of my life. We went through our own share of ups and downs, but I don’t want to end things on bad terms with someone who was once so important to me. I can look back with a smile, and I hope you’ll be able to do the same.

Thank you for being a part of my life. I assure you that I will carry these five years of memories with me for the rest of my life. I know I’ve said this many times before, but it’s true. For now, I hope you enjoy your newfound freedom with the best people and experiences around you.

Fighting, and God bless your journey! I loved you.

FROM: Never again to be yours,
Your Lost Best Friend who will never regret loving you.


Now, it’s time for you to work on yourself—and trust me, they’ll do the same too. Fighting! 
Confess, and let it go! :)

Right track of the road:
Very well said!

⍟    FORGET what is gone, APPRECIATE what still remains and LOOK FORWARD to what is coming next.  +ihatequotes™ 
⍟   Stop holding on to what hurts, and start making room for what feel good. -  thoughtcatalog
⍟   At 17 or even 32, nobody is worth stressing over, like move on, leave people behind, go find yourself, the world is yours, life goes on.   +ihatequotes™ 
⍟   We hold on so tightly, because we're terrified of loss. We hold on till our hands bleed. And in that self-shattering persistence, we fail to see the answer: Just let go.  -  Yasmin Mogahed
⍟    Embrace who you are. You have been given every tool, every talent, and every trait you need to realize your destiny.   +ihatequotes™ 
⍟    You can't be everything to everyone. All you can be is YOU. And that is enough.   +ihatequotes™ 
⍟   Enough is enough. You can't find happiness if you don't move on to your next chapter of your life. - Admin

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8 comments

  1. Anonymous9 August 2016 at 05:26

    Someone lost the moon while counting the stars.

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  2. Anonymous25 September 2016 at 08:26

    "no closure" is sometimes what you think you don't need, but in reality what you need is "a closure"

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  3. Anonymous13 November 2016 at 07:46

    can i take you out?

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  4. Anonymous1 January 2017 at 06:40

    being positive or negative is a choice; it's nice that you are so positive. Spreading positive energy makes those around you feel happy. It makes life more enjoyable. A positive outlook will make good things come!

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  5. unknown1 June 2017 at 02:42

    don't worry, you'll find that one person who'll choose you over anything, in time. something that could have been done for you.

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  6. unknown1 June 2017 at 02:42

    don't worry, you'll find that one person who'll choose you over anything, in time. something that could have been done for you.

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  7. unknown1 June 2017 at 02:43

    don't worry, you'll find that one person who'll choose you over anything, in time. something that could have been done for you.

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  8. unknown1 June 2017 at 05:29

    don't worry, you'll find that one person who'll choose you over anything, in time. something that could have been done for you.

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