No closure is somehow closure
Tuesday, July 12, 2016
Before I take myself a break, now is the right time for me to voice out and let this feelings go away for closure (no future hopes and promises, nothing else but closure at least for myself), which is the reason why I am writing this entry here in my blog. No closure is always a closure. Since he never allow me to lend a day or his short time, all I want is to start with healing before I close this chapter of my life.
"What-you-read-above-is-what-you-get" was the reason and nothing beyond that. I'd like to say that it was his decision alone to keep this distance, but I think we both know it was for the BEST. After all those years, I never imagined we would go through something like this. But, don't get me wrong I don't regret what I've been through.
Hey, Stranger!
It's been a long time. I'm glad you are well, but as we both know I have no idea how you are. haha You probably don't expect this and I don't expect you to read it. But, hoping you can hear what my heart is saying because I want you to know that there is no bitterness and sadness inside anymore. Need I "move on"? Not yet, but don't worry I'm getting there. But now, I will take small steps of finally letting you go (a tough one to accept) and I know that you will be happy for me. I've learned that way this time for my OWN GOOD.
Someone who will adjust herself and who will never stop fighting to make it work because I know giving up is the easiest thing you can do for the first 2 years(not sure). One who will fetch you from the office and go with you somewhere else with your old or new found friends. One who will take care of you when you get drunk and never ever leave you alone from somewhere else. One who's brave enough to take you home and say this to you "Let me see you home first to make sure you get home safely" like the way I did that to you ever since. One who is there for you 24/7. One who will never put you in a situation where you must chase her or sacrifice her but "to sacrifice WHAT YOU ARE". One who won't feel the need to bury with guilt. But I assure you, expect the same roller coaster and heartbreak again with the girl of your dreams (I already told you this a lot of times).
I wish for you to find a friend as great as me, but a much better partner. I hope you found that someone to make you feel what you deserve because you deserve to find happiness. And, I hope I found the ONE worth committing to. Sooner or later, we will be happy of whomever WE choose to love again.
We had those 5 years. Swear, I'll never forget what we shared because those were the best years of my life and we'd been our own share of ups and downs. I don't want to be on bad terms with someone who was once important to me. I can look back with a smile and I hope you'll do the same way too.
I wish for you to find a friend as great as me, but a much better partner. I hope you found that someone to make you feel what you deserve because you deserve to find happiness. And, I hope I found the ONE worth committing to. Sooner or later, we will be happy of whomever WE choose to love again.
We had those 5 years. Swear, I'll never forget what we shared because those were the best years of my life and we'd been our own share of ups and downs. I don't want to be on bad terms with someone who was once important to me. I can look back with a smile and I hope you'll do the same way too.
Thank you because you were once a part of my life and I assure you that I would carry this 5 years of memories with me for the rest of my life. I know I've already said this to you a lot of times. As of now, I hope you'll enjoy your new found freedom with the best people and experiences you have around now.
Fighting and God Bless your journey! I loved you.
FROM: Never again to be yours,
Your Lost Best Friend who will never regret loving you.
FROM: Never again to be yours,
Your Lost Best Friend who will never regret loving you.
That's all. Thanks for dropping by. Now, It's time for you to work on yourself and trust me they would do the same way too. Fighting! Confess and let it go! :)
Right track of the road:
Very well said!
⍟ FORGET what is gone, APPRECIATE what still remains and LOOK FORWARD to what is coming next. +ihatequotes™
⍟ Stop holding on to what hurts, and start making room for what feel good. - thoughtcatalog
⍟ At 17 or even 32, nobody is worth stressing over, like move on, leave people behind, go find yourself, the world is yours, life goes on. +ihatequotes™
⍟ We hold on so tightly, because we're terrified of loss. We hold on till our hands bleed. And in that self-shattering persistence, we fail to see the answer: Just let go. - Yasmin Mogahed
⍟ Embrace who you are. You have been given every tool, every talent, and every trait you need to realize your destiny. +ihatequotes™
⍟ Enough is enough. You can't find happiness if you don't move on to your next chapter of your life. - Admin
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8 comments
Someone lost the moon while counting the stars.
ReplyDelete"no closure" is sometimes what you think you don't need, but in reality what you need is "a closure"
ReplyDeletecan i take you out?
ReplyDeletebeing positive or negative is a choice; it's nice that you are so positive. Spreading positive energy makes those around you feel happy. It makes life more enjoyable. A positive outlook will make good things come!
ReplyDeletedon't worry, you'll find that one person who'll choose you over anything, in time. something that could have been done for you.
ReplyDeletedon't worry, you'll find that one person who'll choose you over anything, in time. something that could have been done for you.
ReplyDeletedon't worry, you'll find that one person who'll choose you over anything, in time. something that could have been done for you.
ReplyDeletedon't worry, you'll find that one person who'll choose you over anything, in time. something that could have been done for you.
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